Sunday, February 22, 2009

Finally a blog...just because...

Weather : Super windy and rainy.

Just because I'm lazy to go and get my journal from my backpack..I'm actually going to type up a blog...LOL

So it's around 1:30 AM...I should be sleeping, but I think the coffee I drank at work is kind of kicking in..so I'm kind of awake right now..LOL Anyway, the weather has been crazy lately. It was storming like last week, then it got sunny like..for 2 days? And now the rain is back, and heavy.

What got me to write this blog is actually because of the rain. Yes, the rain. It reminds me of a certain someone. For some reason, every time it rains, I think of him. He just automatically pop into my mind every time it rains for some reason. It's not like anything particular happened on a rainy day between us...LOL I don't think it ever rained when we were still together.

Talking about being together, if I haven't broken up with him...today/tomorrow will be our first anniversary. How cute huh? Yea..I know...well it's too bad for me...since I broke up with him. Damn, I'm so hating myself for it. Look at this, I haven't talked to him for a week already. I'm not getting irritated at all just because I think I am so in love with him that just thinking about him already makes me a little happier inside. =] But...our once a day talk had already became a once a week talk...I'm just afraid that our once a week talk would eventually turn into a once a month talk...then once a year...AHH!! Damn it! >.<;; I hate this so much...but I love him...I don't know why but I just do!

Get this, I actually can imagine being with him for a very long time. I want to be with him for a very long time. I've never thought like that before...I mean..I have talked about marriage with a few guys but that's just because I want to feel how it feels like to be married...not really for the guy...that sounded harsh...but you know what I mean. With him right now...I actually want to see how it would be like to be married to him. Interesting huh? What's funny is that I told him not too long ago that I can't seem to see myself being married anytime soon, and now all of a sudden...these thoughts pop into my mind...>.<;

He's going to be coming to California...but not to SF next Friday!...*sigh* He's going to be so close to me...but yet so far...That sucks a whole bunch you know? Damn..Why does it have to be San Diego?? Why can't they change the 2nd word to Francisco instead?? Bleh...I just miss him a lot right now...I wish he'd be here with me in my cozy bed watching a movie on my laptop or just...laying there...listening to the wind and the rain together...


If you ever read this Yancy...I truly love you...and I really can't wait to be with you again...

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

Blogging my life, day 9. Foggy...sunny...warm?

So school had started just a week ago, so sad T-T. So far...so good? LOL. I'm taking Econ 3 (Microeconomics), Econ 5 (Statistics for Business), English 1C and Japanese 4 this semester. It's not bad at all, it's actually a pretty good idea to take Econ 3 and Econ 5 at the same time because there are similar things in those classes. The only class I'm kinda worried about is...Japanese 4. I'm not only worried but scared of that class too...cuz...everyone in there can speak Japanese sooooo much more fluent than I can...>.<; I have to do this self-introduction in front of class tomorrow >.< style="font-style: italic;">is a conversational Japanese class...so there will be quite an amount of speaking involved. I swear, I haven't heard my Japanese teacher spoke a single English word ever since the first day of class...it's kinda...scary T-T. Anyway...enough rant about my Japanese class.

Now that school started, that would be my top priority. I know I work too..and would like a lot more money too but..school's more important. I want to get out of here ASAP. But what sucks is that I don't have enough units right now to do the TAG (Transfer Admission Guaranteed) program...blah. I totally forgot about my remedial classes are not transferable...so now instead of transferring by Fall of 09..I might have to do Winter of 09 or Spring of 10...*sigh*

Bottom line is...now that school has started, I'm going to put my whole heart into this semester and get as many As as possible! >.<

Alright, enough procrastination (how ironic...lol), I'm going to go back to homework...haha



TTYL!!!!

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Blogging my life, day 8, foggy...once again..~_~


*siiiiiiigh* so we've been planning on this bonfire for like two weeks now...but the weather just won't get any nicer!!! It pisses me off so badly!! So we plan to have this bonfire last week but the weather was horrible...and so we planned to do it today....but...but....THE WEATHERRRR T___T *siiiigh*

well..anyway...this is what I've been getting down about...I'm just...really tired of things not working out after I/we plan things. So this Friday is suppose to be my birthday dinner...so I've been planning about this like..at least 2-3 weeks ago...asked people...tried to come up with things to do...but it's just getting harder and harder. I mean yea I know..I can just plan something at my house but we've done it so many times! >.< I guess in a way I'm trying too hard too...I'm just trying to fit everyone's schedule you know? But it's just...so hard..

Things really start to get hard to work out for big groups now...I know people don't want to spend money...but think about it..we haven't really hung out and had a lot of fun together ever since Senior year in high school..The only thing that really pisses me off a lot is how people back off just like that...Besides my birthday party...Jackie and I are doing so much to plan out a trip to Six Flags too..yea I know it's a bit pricey but they should know that in the beginning...I mean it's so easy for them to just say a simple "no I can't make it" or "sorry I don't think I can go anymore" than actually planning the whole thing.

I'm just getting really tired of everything...I'm sure I'm not the only one...Ok if it's too expensive then why don't they start planning something for once? I'm talking about the ones who've never planned anything yet and were the ones who wanted to go the most...all we want is some appreciation for our work. Watch if Jackie or Ally or I were to not plan anything or suggest anything, nothing will ever happen. I'm just getting really tired of having to plan something for my own bday and people would just back off cuz it's too expensive or something..meh..what ever...not gonna rant anymore...at this point, I don't really give a crap who goes or who don't anymore..~_~;


....meh

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Thursday, August 7, 2008

Blogging my life day 7. Super foggy.

Wow the weather sucks! At least for the summer...it sucks so badly! It's always cloudy and foggy. Anyway..it's been so long since I blogged..>.< there are so many things that happened but they all passed...so I don't want to talk about it anymore LOL but um..so summer classes are over..just about a week ago..but school's about to start!!

Damn..so for the past month or so, things have happened and some of them I do regret. But instead of moping over them, I'm just going to forget about them and just move on! Ahh so many things to talk about but I can't concentrate cuz I'm watching tv LOL and my thoughts are not organized at all..but yea...

One goal is...I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY!!! and another one is...slow down..and be good Yani..seriously...you need to slow the hell down and think about things before you do it...*sigh* alright..end of blog right here..more to come...LOL

byes~

(what a freaking random ass blog....LOL)

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Friday, June 27, 2008

Blogging my life. Day 6. Cloudy.

Damn. Every time I post a blog it's cloudy...wth LOL anyway...I posted a blog 5 but then I wasn't sure if I to post it public yet...so I will just wait for that.

So...since the 5th blog...it's been a few days now...and that means things have happened! LOL duh..



and once again I gave up on this post...LOL

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Sunday, June 8, 2008

Blogging my life. Day 4. Dark.

So I decided to have this one as day 4 and I'll explain why. I decided to count the days by each day I blog and not by the date, because counting by date, this would be day 6 or 7...what happened with 4 and 5? Exactly, so I'll just count by each blog I post.

So in the last blog, I was talking about something I was going to do that would be really fun...at least I think I said that. Well, yea it, of course again, didn't go as planned but it's fault on my part. So it was supposed to be a birthday party like hangout thing for Jesi's belated birthday, and I guess I had planned to go karaoke and then chill and drink after? Well, first, I took too long to change...like about 2 hours. I just got really picky with my clothes. Second, we did kind of rushed the planning part too. Well, and other things affected the actual happening of the event. But anyway, moving on, so it ended up with only Shirley, Ally and I so we dragged Tiffe along to go eat and K with us. After that we went to Safeway to get some drinks, picked up Amy and came back home to drink.

It was really fun stuff I have to tell you. Although it wasn't hardcore drinking, I still somehow managed to get so fucked up the next day that I puked for 7 fucking hours non-stop. I guess it's not that bad, but I just didn't understand why I puked so much. I mean, I seriously didn't think I drank so much. I guess I'm wrong? Well, either way, it was really funny seeing all of us drunk-ish? lol So, considering the puking...I decided to call in to take the day off. I hesitated to do so but then I really felt like I was dying, so I did. I felt really bad afterwards because I found out that Jesi already had plans with her special someone...so I thought of calling back and going to work anyway because I was starting to feel better. But before I did, Lisa called and asked if I can work still because Jesi was feeling kind of sad about it, so I answered yes and went to work that day. Well, what a fun day huh? I can't remember every single bits of it, but I have to be thankful for Ally, Shirley and Amy because they all stayed at my house until I felt a little better, cooked for me, put me to rest, etc. I love them!! x3

Moving on, the next day, which was...yesterday (all the puking and such happened on Thursday), was just an ordinary day, not much happened. I went to watch my little sister's play, picked her up, came home and went to work. So...nothing much right?...

Well, until after work that is... (I'm getting sleepy...I'm going to edit this post later this morning I guess. There are so much on my mind right now, but I guess my tiredness is taking over...I'll be back...)

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Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Blogging my life. Day 3. Sunny.

So today is actually a pretty sunny day but still kind of cold. I have work later from 12PM - 5PM and then whatever happens later on, that's going to be fun. I can't wait! I guess I'll try to blog about that later, but that'll probably end up in day 4 blog. Once again yesterday, I went to Zephyr to chill, just because I didn't want to be home. I went there from 7 something to around 10:30 at night. I'm never really home anymore, just because...I don't feel comfy at home any more. It's pretty complicated, but I'll eventually tell you the whole story. So I was chilling at Zephyr, listening to music and talking to Jesi and we got onto to the topic of whether or not I'm happy with Yancy. I was having a really hard time answering that question.

Darn it..almost time for work...i guess i'll just leave you here Blogger and I'll come back to you either later (after work I hope) or tomorrow!

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